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Yes, This week I'm maintained. Which in most cases would be a great thing. But in my case... I'm in a competition COME ON!!!!

So this weekend is Free Comic Book Day weekend and we have started a tradition of taking all of our nephews and my niece to this joyous event. We will have them from this afternoon all the way until tomorrow night :) so excited... even though it's 6 kids it's a riot! I'll post a pic of the crew this weekend. Because of this I am going to take it a little lax this weekend. Not overdo it though but just not worry so much about everything.

Next week though... better watch out because it's a new week and a new determination! it'll be less then 2 months to go for final weigh in on this competition and I need to kill it!

Believing in Karma

Yesterday I was having a horrible day. Enough emotional exhaustion to make me take a nap at 7 o'clock at night.

Well today I woke up and was determined to be happy... determined to make this a better day. And so far it's been EXCELLENT!

Can't wait for this weekend when I have all my nephews and my niece to do free comic book day on Saturday and then the weekend after to watch Iron Man 2 and get some much needed work done around the back yard to make it a HOT ENTERTAINMENT SPOT!

New kicks.... new workout

So I found these new kicks at Sears on Saturday and guess what.... they were on Sale!!!

They say they are designed for running. Since I'm starting with quick walking/jogging I figured I would give them a try and then later if I get to where I am running I'll consider the next step up.

So this week I'm going to try to get out at least twice in the nice weather... and break these babies in!

Tonight.... indeed was a good good night!

So kiddies... I decided tonight because my co-worker told me I look like I'm melting... that I would try on the jeans and pants in my first closet that I have been awaiting to put back on for 2 years.

and guess what

THEY FIT!!!!

I came running out into the living room and about scared my husband I was screaming so loud. After a celebratory slap on the tush from him.. I decided that my weigh in tomorrow has got to be positive, it will! If nothing just because I can get into my jeans and really haven't had a good pair of jeans to wear for 2 years. I so want to cry I'm sooooo happy.

I'm not going to celebrate with food. Rather I am going to get a new pair of athletic shoes to motivate me to go jogging. :):):)

Finding a new respect for breakfast

Not that I didn’t already know that breakfast is the most important meal of the day, but I’ve allowed myself all my life to “skip” breakfast. But now that I’m using this food journal to track my calories it really IS benificial. If I don’t get some good calories in at breakfast that throws me off the rest of the day and I’m either too short calories or having to make them up which I’m sure dooesn’t help weight loss.

So goal this week is to wake up 30 mins before my normal time and eat breakfast with my hubbs. That way we are both off to a great start and hopefully that will show on the scale next Friday.

Postive findings

So my husband hid the scale from me all week. "Thank you baby!"
I found that because he did that I didn't feel discouraged every day. I felt like I needed to keep tight watch on my food journal and make sure I get in at least 20-60+ mins of activeness each day.

This week I played "Just Dance" for the Wii almost every night. I love dancing and man do your arms burn after just a few songs. I also took a walk to see how long it would take to get to the local school and back so my hubby and I can start playing basketball there. The last work out I did was Aqua class. It's harder to motivate myself to go to aqua class because it starts at 6-7 then I jump in the hot tub for 15 and by the time I get home it's almost 8 PM and then I'm eating dinner... yuck! it just doesn't fit as well but I love doing it.

So results as you can see from my tickers was positive this week. I'm no longer negative on my ticker... Still adjusting my eating to fit my needs and feel pretty good!

Counting Down to Friday!!!

So with this new weight loss challenge they changed the rules so that I can't post on "That" site my weight loss and only turn in my pic on the last day of the comp. But I feel like I still need to make myself accountable. My Hubby is hiding my scale from me except for this Friday morning and next Friday morning. After that he doesn't need to hide it anymore because I will leave it in the closet until Friday mornings... hahaha seeing a theme yet?

I won't post my weight on here in case the other ladies in that comp try to look on here but I think I can still move my tickers to show my loss!

Wish me luck! I'm trying super hard to focus on my food journal since I can't see my weight. Hopefully this pays off.

Samantha on.... Hiding the scale

SO I am finding myself obsessed with the scale lately. Not just once a day but multi times. So I've had it!

I asked my husband to hide it. I told him he can bring it out for me Friday mornings but until then I don't even want to see it. I don't want to be tempted. Because what I do is get happy one moment and depressed the next.

I also think this might drive me to do better and focus on my food journal all week so that I can see positive movement on the scale when I do step on.

Let's see if this works!

Day 3 of food journaling! The SWITCH

Man I have to tell you this is really opening my eyes as to my eating habits.
I now know that I eat less in the morning and more at night. So a goal in the next weeks is to switch so I eat more in the morning and through out the day I get lighter and lighter.

I also am seeing that I am eating way less calories then I should in a day. I keep ending up at the end of the day far under where I should be. Hopefully the "switch" will help because I'm trying to fight the mentality of "Have to eat all these calories before I go to bed".

I'm already seeing a little positive movement on the scale! YAY!!! I also have been working out with my hubby and plan to ramp it up next week at the gym once I have money to shop and get the proper foods I need for the "switch".

Good Luck Everyone!

Going back to church...

How cliche was it of me yesterday to go back to church on Easter Sunday after not going for years. I've been wanting to get back into church for sometime now but have just made excuses. Last week when my dad put the invite out there again to join him in his parish for Easter Mass. This time... I didn't make excuses... I said YES!
I said yes, knowing my husband couldn't come with me. Knowing that it meant we would be apart for most of Easter.

I have to be honest and say that I was very nervous. Nervous I wouldn't remember to say "Peace be with you" or "Amen" at the right times. But once I stepped in and sat down and looked at all the wonderful Easter outfits on the kids... it felt like home! I listened very carefully to the words spoken. I realized I hadn't been giving god enough credit for everything he has given me.. not what has been taken away. I found my singing voice back as I enjoyed singing every time there was a song. And afterwords... I felt good, like I had reconnected to an old friend, and like maybe this is what my soul has been missing.

So maybe me trying so hard to find a balance was for not because I wasn't incorporating the right balance of things for my soul. I know I need to eat right, I know I need to exercise, and now I know I need to give thanks for every day god allows me to breathe and enjoy those around me.

Amen!

Depression and how I'm trying to get over it

Since January I have been dealing with this on and off depression. Today has just been bad with it. I mean I want to be happy for everyone... but when you constantly hear of someone else getting pregnant. Well it makes you feel like you are a loser or behind the game. The doc and everyone told me that you can usually get pregnant right after a miscarriage.... 3 months later and nothing. So depression is setting in. I'm allowing it to take me over to the point that normal crafts or things I do really have no meaning or inspiration. I have a hard time talking about it because I try sooo hard to be strong and "act" like I'm ok.

The only thing I can do at this point is change what I am in control of... my eating, my exercising, and my self image.

So this is me officially posting that I'm tappin out of the baby making business for now and focusing on my other goals that I can control.

My step sis is starting a 12 week weight loss challenge and I thought while I just finished my work one and awaiting the next round of Kari's that sure I'll sign up for hers... just to keep me motivated. Maybe it'll also refocus me so that I can get somethings in my life in order.