The Toxicity of my city... of my city

Ok not a song I truly like but fitting for this post. I've been analysing the many issues that I have and in talking with my besty Jack it could be as simple as my pH balance being off. I'm not talking about my deodorant.. I'm talking about my Alkaline/Acid balance in my body. Think back to High school chemistry. If the water in your fish tank or the soil in the ground is too Acidic nothing good can survive.

If I'm more Acidic then that means that my body is a breading ground for diseases. Ew gross and NOT AGAIN! I have had some really weird things happen to me my whole life. Weird illnesses that basically started in my early 20's till now. Actually it's about the time I moved out of my dads house and really started scarfing down those fast food meals and comfort foods. I've had open sores on my legs that at the time the docs had no clue what they were but that antibiotics almost killed me.. today I believe its closest to Merca. Well I had them from about mid thigh to my toes on both legs. It's a miracle I'm still here. Next I had sudden sensitivity in my gums and bleeding. Not like spotting... like covering my entire pillow bleeding. Also when I start to get in a work out grove ALWAYS end up with a cold with in a week. It makes it so I don't want to work out!

So the more and more I think about it the more I'm realizing there is a lot more about my body that I need to know. Just counting calories isn't going to cut it. I am going to get some pH Testing strips from Walgreens or somewhere and test to see if Jack is correct. If he is then I'm changing my diet to be more Alkaline foods (Leafy Greens, Broccoli, Bananas, etc.) and then test again in a few weeks.

This could also be why my hormone levels are low in certain areas.. To know that all along a simple little strip of paper could have told me what I needed to know and help me adjust accordingly. Frustrating... but relieving all at the same time. This week I'm declaring is my last appt for my hormones as I believe I no longer want to give all my money to chemical medicine and try this. It's with in MY Control!

Admitting the things I can not change but having the courage to change the things I can......

So I'm commenting on others blogs and realizing I keep saying "Take it one day at a time" which is the motto for most addiction programs. I too feel that food is an addiction. The issue is that it's a necessary thing.

Tonight while my hubby is getting his car windshield replaced I'm going to head over to the local farmers market and start renewing my taste realtionship with fruits and veggies. Going to smell and touch and take in the aroma. I need to change how I associate with food. I'm finding lately that it's not that I'm enjoying what I'm eating. It's that I'm eating. Doesn't matter what it is it's just the act of eating is helping my down state. So no longer I say!

I am going to buy good things, prepare a nutritious meal, and feel accomplished. I am also going to take my time to enjoy the meal with out TV and focus on every bite. I'm even going to do what I was told as a kid and count my chews before I swallow.

Food and I need to change our relationship.. and it's got to be me to do so.

Small changes

So I'm sitting here reading everyones blogs on break... and I see that others are making great changes.

Me... I've had struggles this month do to illness and allergies as well as many doctors appts. I've been trying to get back onto my work out regimen. I do at least 30 mins of something each day. So I feel good that I'm getting there but I know for the life of me again I'm not getting enough calories thru out the day.

I loooooove sleep! I keep telling myself to get up and make breakfast you'll be better off... what do I do? Hit the alarm over and over until I have to get up for work! Why can't I mentally get over this sleep thing and just get up?!?!? I'm hoping that the specialist next week can figure out what is going haywire with the chemicals in my body so I can feel normal again!

12 days left till judgement day!

So I woke up this morning actually being able to breathe and realized that this month is FLYING by! We only have 12 days till the next weigh in people! 12 more days to make better choices... work out hard... and hope to see the results on the scale.

I personally have a movie date tonight and told my hubby this morning "NO POPCORN". That is my biggest thing. I can't go to a movie with out it. Well this competition means more to me then the popcorn at this point. I'll still see the movie and enjoy, but I won't be partaking in the buttery goodness.

Also for the first time this summer my hair isn't in a pony tail at work. I woke up this morning and decided that apart of my transformation needs to me having more personal pride in my appearance. Not that I looked like a slob or anything before. But that I need to actually put the effort into my hair in the morning to feel good about myself all day which in return I hope helps me make great decisions.

So glad I'm starting to actually feel normal again to be able to work out! So before my movie tonight... it's ON!

Feeling 85% and craving a work out

So this week as many of you know I have been battling a cold. I swear that it's stuck around longer because as my husband says "You just don't know how to relax and rest". I seriously don't. I don't have a clue why I'm not 95 lbs because I constantly feel like I have to be doing something. Dishes, Vacuuming, hunting flies to swat around the house, watering the lawns, pulling weeds and so on and so on.

I wish I had that thing that would just stop making me restless. I basically am go go go until I crash. I think this week it's been even more so. I've cut out my workouts because I basically haven't been able to breathe and I think that because I don't have that release... boom I'm restless! It's even gotten hard to fall asleep or stay asleep.

So I've still got a cough and semi stuffy nose but this weekend we are doing some major summer cleaning so I can set up my guest room :) That might be enough exercise for me... we'll see ;)

I swear this happens everytime....

Every time I get into a work out groove... BAM! I get a full blown cold and not one that you can work through. No the harder I worked the longer it's stayed. So today. I've spent all day resting and finally I'm starting to feel the gook break up in my chest.

This is a 4 day road block now for me. All that was under my control is what I've been eating and all I've been drinking is water, water... and um did I mention more water! I just hope that when I wake up tomorrow I'm 70% better so I can at least make it through the work day tomorrow. Not to mention I want to work out so bad I can taste it!

Baby! This is how I roll!

Ok so I started doing a variety of exercises to keep me motivated.
Walking
Hip Hop Abs DVD's (I love dancing and shaking my boootie!)
Yard work
Basically anything that keeps me moving for 30-60 mins constant.

Let me tell you that doing this for a week has really made me feel good. Even though I've developed a cough the last 2 days I'm pushing thru! I'm downing water like it's going out of style. Hold on boys and girls... This girl is determined!

Actions speak louder then words

So today I went and saw Eclipse for the second time. I love that movie. Sure there are things I wished they would have put in but think they did a great job.

I could have just come home this afternoon and sat on the couch but I didn't. thanks to my sister in law Beaux I went out walkin in the heat with her. Only walked for about 35-40 mins before the heat got to me but I did it. I didn't give up I did it!

Each day I'm going to try to overcome some hurtle in my way. I think that is a great mini goal. If I'm daily trying to do something physical sooner or later it'll get easier and easier.

A new competition starts today!!!

So I'm apart of a new competition that started today. Got my weigh in pic in as well as my full body shot pics.

I have the next few days off so I'm focusing on water intake, eating, and getting on a smooth schedule before I start back up to work next Tuesday.

Don't get me wrong I'm going to partake in some BBQ's this weekend but I'll be bellying up to the veggie tray!

Good luck everyone!