Live... but you gotta learn!!

So this month has been hard. Between getting used to new medications and depression.. and plain old what can go wrong with my home or cars can and did. I just didn't have any fight left in me this month to do everything I needed to.

So what do I do from here? Well this week I'm going to accept Kari's challenge and do what I'm supposed to do. I made a meal plan and stuck to it at the store (no cookies, candy, etc.). My husband and I made a pact this week that neither of us can eat dinner until we've worked out Mon, Wed, Thur, & Fri. NO EXCUSES... the only one that will slide is if we are dead. The reason for this is that when we sit down to eat dinner we get sucked into what ever is on TV and never get back up. This will change!

Today I'm already starting off right and I brought all my food with me to work today so I am doing pretty well so far!

Good luck everyone...

Holy gads batman... weigh in is only a few more days away!!!

I have not at all been on plan or track or anything this month. This is completely my fault. I gave into every temptation, convenience, and just plain boredom.

I had to replace a central air unit this week which cost a pretty penny... and just trying to stay a float in this economy has been hard. It's been cheaper and easier to grab that dollar menu burger or what not.

ALL EXCUSES!!! and frankly I am tired of hearing them come out of my mouth!

I HAVE the opportunity to change my routine
I HAVE the opportunity to pre-prep meals before my week starts
I HAVE the opportunity to work out before I get tired and sit my bum on the couch
I HAVE the opportunity to stop eating when I'm bored just because it's there
and I HAVE to make a change before this kills me!

Loving yourself

Something that I've really been unable to achieve is self love.

I tend to make crack shots at myself or compare my girth to another person and I always come out losing. Examples: My husband will say something that has NOTHING to do with my weight and I jokingly say "Yeah it's because I'm fat", or I'll see a lady walk down the street and go "Damn she's big,... but I'm bigger". Not that I should ever EVER say that someone with weight problems is worse off then I am. It's not fair because I get butt hurt when someone makes reference towards me in passing.

Well it's gotten to the point that my husband doesn't even say anything or talk to me when I make shots like that. He told me "It hurts ME when you say stuff like that about yourself". I never realized before that I was hurting others AND hurting myself.

So my challenge this week is to look in the mirror each morning and say something positive about myself, Pick out something positive in others, and STOP CALLING MYSELF FAT for a laugh.

Looking thinner but no scale movement...

So I have to post this. Yesterday my mother in law told me I was looking good. My husband also earlier this weekend said he's noticing a difference. So I got on the scale... no difference.

I've been focusing on my food intake and not so much on my exercise per doctors instructions with my new medication (Makes me uber tired and fatigued)... So this week I'm going to focus on walking more. I want to see that scale dip!

This burns Calories?!?!?!?!

Yes, today I took the day off work... well I scheduled it off weeks ago just as a random day. Instead of sitting on my butt all day I decided to do house work and yard work... yes! Burnin the calories!

On being broke for a week... but still making good choices

So as what always happens... events come up that you need to buy gifts for. Computer needed a new Hard Drive. The thunder storms took out my wireless router... what else... hahahah

So needless to say until next pay day I barely have a dime to my name. I did however manage to look in my cupboards/fridge and realize I have been buying a lot of great foods and you know what... we'll be ok!

I have 3 bunches of broccoli, celery, salad, spinach, carrots, apples, oranges, grapes, etc. etc. So when my hubby was a little worried I reassured him that all I have to do is cook a little extra for dinners and we'll have left overs for lunches and we'll survive. It's sad that cooking at home is considered surviving. Wow in typing this I think this is a mind set I need to change. Eating out because there's no food in the house should be considered "Surviving" not the other way around.

Kari! I accept your challenge this week!

This Months goals

1. Stay Hydrated
2. Work out atleast 3 times a week
3. Make good eating choices on the week days and don't overdo it on the weekends
4. Say something positive about my self each day


That should be a good enough start

August Weigh in.... better then I thought

Oh man I've been trying hard. My medications have been wacky and I finally saw a specialist on Thursday. Looks like even with my issues I still managed to lose something. YAY!

So here's my scale pic.


I'm not too proud of this # as I know I can do much better. I'm going to really try to get my eating under control and my water intake this next month. Because working out isn't going to do it all.