So I've been making it a goal to get off my butt at work and take at least 1 15 min walk around the parking lot a day. As a manager time to get that in is almost unheard of, but I've been forcing myself. I put 2 a day in my schedule and try to at least make one of them.
This is making me feel better BUT and there is always a but, I don't feel like it's enough. In fact I know it's not enough. By the time I get home, get dinner made, get the dogs played with, get what ever house work I need to get done. . . I'm exhausted. I don't even have a child yet and I'm so worn out... mentally from the work day and then physically from all the stuff I feel I need to do.
I know we all feel this way. We start off really gungho about the whole weight loss thing and we give in to excuses. I have 0 yes 0 weight loss to report. I believe this is #1 due to having so much to do I make what ever is quick and easy. Trying to put veggies in the the mix most of the time though. #2 Stress!!! with work, with trying to have a baby. I find myself a lot lately wishing I were a kid again so that I could only have to worry about keeping my room clean and homework. Funny, as adults we forget how to "Play"... not video games, but play outside. Duane and I have been talking a lot lately about me just worrying about getting my body right and my hormones back on track... not worrying about calculating every step of my cycle to maybe have a child. Even though I said I took 6 months off... I took it off from everything so I didn't do anything to get myself right.
So with that said I will probably be telling my family and friends that the whole baby situation is on hold. I'm getting more and more depressed by the day. This isn't all of who I am. It's like my whole world was put on hold for 2 years... 2 YEARS!!! That is a lot of time I could have been focusing on other things and enjoying my life. If I died tomorrow I could only say that I was a hard worker. . . and that is sad.
So time to actually start Walking the walk... not just going through the motions.
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Sis, the little things, like walking on breaks, add up- little changes in your diet add up. It all adds up to a healthier lifestyle which, in time, you will be rewarded for. So you didn't lose any this week... Take a moment to look at all the healthier things you DID do this week and pat yourself on the back. The scale can be our best friend one day and our worst enemy the next. You are doing an awesome job! Keep it up, I believe in you! :oD
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