So this week many hustle and bustles happened. It sucks when both your cars need to be registered the same month each year. Never the less repairs done. One car registered the other should be by tomorrow.
This week I decided to not be a debbie downer. I decided to enjoy each minute that I had. I did my walking on breaks and that felt good. Been cooking at home a little more and this week we are going for 100% no fast food. I even went to scrapbook club last night and wasn't a huge downer because I was "Tired" or something else. I sat there in the heated room with a fan blowing my project 2 and fro laughing, enjoying the company of the ladies, and really loving my creation.
When I got home last night I mentioned to Duane that I haven't really been scrapbooking in my room all that much since I moved everything down stairs... funny he said he had noticed. I've been so caught up in other things I hadn't noticed I haven't done that or painted or played my sax in a while. Maybe it's really time I started Livin again! Do the things I enjoy and if happiness follows, well I am ready for ya!
Baby steps for sure... not buying any more clothes until I drop some sizes.
2014 Goal (100 lb loss)
2014 Goal
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Walking. . . . . . . . . . .
So I've been making it a goal to get off my butt at work and take at least 1 15 min walk around the parking lot a day. As a manager time to get that in is almost unheard of, but I've been forcing myself. I put 2 a day in my schedule and try to at least make one of them.
This is making me feel better BUT and there is always a but, I don't feel like it's enough. In fact I know it's not enough. By the time I get home, get dinner made, get the dogs played with, get what ever house work I need to get done. . . I'm exhausted. I don't even have a child yet and I'm so worn out... mentally from the work day and then physically from all the stuff I feel I need to do.
I know we all feel this way. We start off really gungho about the whole weight loss thing and we give in to excuses. I have 0 yes 0 weight loss to report. I believe this is #1 due to having so much to do I make what ever is quick and easy. Trying to put veggies in the the mix most of the time though. #2 Stress!!! with work, with trying to have a baby. I find myself a lot lately wishing I were a kid again so that I could only have to worry about keeping my room clean and homework. Funny, as adults we forget how to "Play"... not video games, but play outside. Duane and I have been talking a lot lately about me just worrying about getting my body right and my hormones back on track... not worrying about calculating every step of my cycle to maybe have a child. Even though I said I took 6 months off... I took it off from everything so I didn't do anything to get myself right.
So with that said I will probably be telling my family and friends that the whole baby situation is on hold. I'm getting more and more depressed by the day. This isn't all of who I am. It's like my whole world was put on hold for 2 years... 2 YEARS!!! That is a lot of time I could have been focusing on other things and enjoying my life. If I died tomorrow I could only say that I was a hard worker. . . and that is sad.
So time to actually start Walking the walk... not just going through the motions.
This is making me feel better BUT and there is always a but, I don't feel like it's enough. In fact I know it's not enough. By the time I get home, get dinner made, get the dogs played with, get what ever house work I need to get done. . . I'm exhausted. I don't even have a child yet and I'm so worn out... mentally from the work day and then physically from all the stuff I feel I need to do.
I know we all feel this way. We start off really gungho about the whole weight loss thing and we give in to excuses. I have 0 yes 0 weight loss to report. I believe this is #1 due to having so much to do I make what ever is quick and easy. Trying to put veggies in the the mix most of the time though. #2 Stress!!! with work, with trying to have a baby. I find myself a lot lately wishing I were a kid again so that I could only have to worry about keeping my room clean and homework. Funny, as adults we forget how to "Play"... not video games, but play outside. Duane and I have been talking a lot lately about me just worrying about getting my body right and my hormones back on track... not worrying about calculating every step of my cycle to maybe have a child. Even though I said I took 6 months off... I took it off from everything so I didn't do anything to get myself right.
So with that said I will probably be telling my family and friends that the whole baby situation is on hold. I'm getting more and more depressed by the day. This isn't all of who I am. It's like my whole world was put on hold for 2 years... 2 YEARS!!! That is a lot of time I could have been focusing on other things and enjoying my life. If I died tomorrow I could only say that I was a hard worker. . . and that is sad.
So time to actually start Walking the walk... not just going through the motions.
Friday, July 8, 2011
Down a couple more!!!
So I'm down to 331.8
This week has been majorly stressful! My poor 4 month old puppy came down with Parvo and she was in the vet hospital all week. Between that and it being a short week at work but a weeks worth of stuff to do... I haven't made the best choices. I've not walked on breaks this week, I've drank more non water then water, and I've eaten poorly.
Now that I know I've done this I'm not going to beat myself up over it. I'm going to realize what I've done and then I'm going to move on. I could have done much better but not going to shame myself for losing over 10 lbs in 3 weeks.
Puppy is doing well. A lot of meds have to be administered through out the day still and special food. Eventually we can let our dogs play together again... and she is dying to play with Hudson! It's been hard to keep them apart.
I have been switching to anything sugar free. There are times I want some chocolate or a Popsicle. It's nice to know I have some great tasty choices there.
This week has been majorly stressful! My poor 4 month old puppy came down with Parvo and she was in the vet hospital all week. Between that and it being a short week at work but a weeks worth of stuff to do... I haven't made the best choices. I've not walked on breaks this week, I've drank more non water then water, and I've eaten poorly.
Now that I know I've done this I'm not going to beat myself up over it. I'm going to realize what I've done and then I'm going to move on. I could have done much better but not going to shame myself for losing over 10 lbs in 3 weeks.
Puppy is doing well. A lot of meds have to be administered through out the day still and special food. Eventually we can let our dogs play together again... and she is dying to play with Hudson! It's been hard to keep them apart.
I have been switching to anything sugar free. There are times I want some chocolate or a Popsicle. It's nice to know I have some great tasty choices there.
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