Happy Birthday to me!!

Now that my Birthday is over I wanted to post a pic of me.... and hope that next year my pic will show progress... I feel good this year! This IS my year.

On making the choice to embrace change

For so long I've been scared of change. To the point that I will stay in or in my mind create a miserable situation for years before deciding that change needs to happen. Whether that be a change in my attitude or a change of scenery... Either way it's change and I need to embrace it.

Right now I've been focusing on little changes. In my work out routines, In my appearance when I have time, and in my comments towards myself. This year Duane and I have decided we are going to embrace life and what ever changes are a head of us. We are going to start being active participants in our life rather then watch it pass us by. This, This has been the biggest change of all. Making the choice to choose life. Making the choice to embrace the world for all it's beauty and actually breathe it in. This takes a sacrifice in other aspects of our lives.

Point is until I change and choose to believe that my life is worth living... I will always be miserable. I HAVE TO BE THE POINT OF THE EQUATION THAT CHANGES!

On being positive about my self image

I know we all do this... we are told as little girls that we will grow up to be sooo beautiful. When we hit Jr. High/High school all of sudden we realize that we may not be as pretty or beautiful as someone else. We also see images of these beautiful airbrushed women every where when we are an adult. So today's topic for me is about getting past everything that has been programmed in me and to just love myself for who I am. I, like many, base my self worth/image off of the outside not whats inside.

I basically spent 2010 being really down on myself. that really did show thru my out word appearance as well. I stopped caring if I wore makeup at all, I stopped caring if my clothes were very "put together"... in fact I think I lived in sweat pants last year.

Well I've decided that if I'm positive rather then negative then my karma meter might kick in this year. I've been trying to put more of an effort in my out word appearance but on top of that I've told myself that I can't state a SINGLE negative comment about my weight or looks. I know it's only been a week but I do feel better and "Lighter" not being so down on myself all the time.

Last night we decided to go out to see my uncles band play with some friends. I got home from work and spent 2 hours getting fully ready. I felt more beautiful then I have I'd say in a year or more. All it took was a little effort and a positive outlook. Here is a pic:


I don't think I have any reason to be negative about that outcome from my efforts!

Mini goals this week

Monday, Tuesday, thursday, Friday and Saturday
I will have atleast 30 mins of moderate activity

So far I had 32 mins Monday
35 mins Tuesday... :) on track!
Thursday 32 mins
Friday : Going Dancing so I'll update after that

Not looking back but looking forward to 2011

So I was reading my friend Mindy's blog today about writing down your goals and hopes for 2011. So to stay in theme of wanting this year too be better then the last I am going to move on from 2010 to make 2011 a productive, life living, fulfilling one. I'm going to list my goals but go one step further to set mini goals so that each item is attemptable or achievable.

1. I am going to reconnect with myself
-Start writing or journaling more
-No more negative comments about myself
-take 20-30 mins a day just for myself (Meditation)
-Start taking steps to forgive and love myself
2. Continue on my weight loss journey
-Don't just talk the talk
-Move 30-60 mins a day (no excuses)
-Be accountable for EVERYTHING I put in my body
-Remember the vitamins
3. Get outdoors!!!
-Go Hiking to take pics
-Make it a habit to get out on Saturday/Sunday mornings
-Walk the dog more
-Get the yard the way I want it
4. Watch less TV
-This consumes my life, No longer!
-Things can be recorded and watched AFTER everything else is done
5. Focus on paying off debt
-Focus on one bill at a time
-Make a new budget for 2011
-Get Duane more involved in that budget
-Set financial goals together
6. Continue Date nights
-Once a month just a night out to focus on us
-My husband and my life are an important focus

These are just some... I've focused too much time on my work and am realizing I'm getting bigger and bigger and my excuse revolves around work. So this year I am going to start L-I-V-I-N! If I'm gone tomorrow I don't want to regret not living my life and putting what was important as a priority.

Happy new year all! Hope you have a prosperous year.