Doing it... no really

So I've been back to Jazzercise but the weather is causing classes to be cancelled so I've been thinking of alternative things to do at home. Crunches on commercials, Bicep curls, etc... anything I can do.

So I'm back down to my fighting weight before the holidays... 298! Which is awesomesauce. Now I need to break through that number and keep going. I updated my ticker with my 2013 goal to get to Onederland.. That's as long as I don't fall pregnant :P

I won't talk much about what I'm doing with that and the schedule... This time we'll keep it private when it does happen until we are in the safe zone. I've decided that I'm too old and will only have one pregnancy. People keep trying to change my mind but when I think about having a kid still living at home when I'm near my 60's it just turns me off hahahaha. I have worked so hard for just one.. if I'm blessed with just one I'm not pushing my luck.. I'm moving on with my life and enjoying every moment I get.

Anyways, got a little side tracked this week with emotions and rash choices to delete my calorie counter program... but all is good in the hood now. I am back on there and drama free peeps are gone off the list.

Jan Mini goal: 8.9 lbs

March 2012-Jan 2013 35 lbs loss

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Fighting Emotions... and colds... and a NEW HOPE

So as some of you know I lost my grandpa Harold this holiday season. He was 79. It's been a 4-5 year ordeal and I thought I was prepared for it. Alas I had a few bad days there of uncontrolable crying and emotions. I'm not one to get weak and it was really hard for me to allow myself to feel like that. I did however so I could get over this process to move onto better times in 2013.

In the mist of that I landed cold #3 just 2 weeks after the last cold. This one hit hard and fast and has lasted over 5 days. I think I'm through th worst of it now but the hazy air isn't helping my nagging cough. Isn't it funny that when you get sick everyone instantly thinks you are pregnant? ummm peeps I'm not throwing up, I have what half of utah has right now... chill!

Today is a good milestone. Today I go back into my amazing OBGYN to check on my blood pressure and since I've lost 15 more lbs then he expected me to in order to discuss fertility options... think we'll discuss that too! Duane and I have had some talks resently but last nights was wonderful. Day dreaming about our piggy tailed little girl or our overall wearing spikey haired little guy (both blonde blue eyed :))and how amazing it would be to actually concieve this year. I think that hope we both lost has returned in full force and we can see our bright future again. In hopes that maybe all this postive energy manifests into what we want. So stay tuned... I have some hard month ahead with hormone treatments and such, but if it results in a pregnancy it'll be worth it!