Feeling Stronger each day

So I'm tired of the scale telling me if I am or am not making progress. The other day I stepped on and about flew off the handle that I was 333 when just a few days prior I was 326.5.... ummm not! My pants are fitting very loose in the legs and I'm starting to see changes in my arms.

I've been on this roller coaster for many years and I know that at first when you start a work out regimine and aren't on a 100% clean diet you tend to gain muscle and the scale doesn't drop or drop as fast.. My hubby reminded me that weighing every day only played into that emotional roller coaster and he's right. I should just focus on what I can control and only weigh my self once a month like I told myself I was going to do.

So after vacation I have the 5K for race for the cure. I plan to spend the time after vacation to refocus my meal plan. Focus on quick and easy things I can grab and go that stay inline with eating right (AND ENOUGH!). I think I have the work out part down and am going 3-4 days a week. I know the food part really is the hardest part. I am so proud of my Husband being down 10 lbs since Jan 1st. I'm down 6 which isn't too shabby... but I have a long way to go and damn it I want to fit into that cute wardrobe hanging in my closet waiting for me :(

I can do this!

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

-Christina Aguilera

Addicted to Jazzercise

So the first week I went three nights in a row and slightly pulled my knee. Now I've found that if I put a day or two in between I can rock it. I still feel on the days that I'm not working out the urge to want to go. I'm calling this my new addiction! I feel great after working out. Now I need to get my mind into eating properly for the amount I'm exerting so the weight will fly off. I know how to do this as I've done it before with my friend who is a personal trainer. Just need to make my menu, stick to my list at the store and eat on time.

Right now though I'm focusing on getting my butt to class 3 days a week and eating better. After vacation at the end of this month I will then get on a meal plan 5-6 days out of the week... but right now I'm focusing on working out and my road to vacation!!! because rest is just as important.

I highly recommend the Jazzercise work out. There are all levels and it's very encouraging atmosphere. Love those ladies!!!

My first 5K results

Well I did it! I completed my first 5 K. I did so in 1 hour 1 min and 35.5 seconds.
Let me tell you it wasn't as easy as I thought it was going to be. For one I'm carrying over 200lbs of extra person on me, My left foot and calf went numb half way through and stayed numb until about 5 yards from the finish, I was the 4th last people to finish.... but you know what? I did it, I didn't give up, and I kept telling myself to believe I could finish. Whether it took me 3 hours or 1 damn it I was going to finish what I set out to do. I feel like a different person now. I feel like I want to set more goals to try to accomplish...

First thing is first. Jazzercise, lose weight and set my sites for my next 5 K which is May 12th. I want to be able to not be in pain for days after and want to have that same sense of accomplishment.

If I can do this at 330 lbs... what's your excuse?

Taking action...

So, I went to a free Jazzercise class last night. At first I thought I wasn't going to make it through but I forced myself to stick it out. You know what? I ended up looooving it and I was able to do most of the moves. The Instructor Angie was amazing! She was motivating us to sing along and yell on command.. kept me very engaged. After class I decided to go ahead and sign up for a year. I've been needing a class which pushes me to work harder and not just slightly go through the motions at home. I love the GIRL POWER feel to the place and the people were so nice. I also love that my friend Christy introduced me to this and now I have a great work out partner!

In little over a day I have my first 5K ever!!!! The trail seems pretty flat and easy. I'm excited to be doing this not only to prove to myself that I can do this but helping out a great cause. Yes, Ladies and gentleman... I maybe turning into one of "those" people, but hey, my soul feels great right now.

I'm sure i'll be posting pics of before, during, and after the event on a blog later this weekend. So Excited!!!!

How crazy am I?

Not only am I doing a 5K in March but now I've started a team for the Susan G Komen Cancer walk/run on May 12th. My goal was to complete a 5K this year and now I've committed to 2. I actually feel my soul is more at peace with this. It's not a feeling I've had in a long time.

My Mother passed away on Mother's day 1994. I was only 14 years old when she passed. It's hard every year around that time, but am so blessed at the support I have from my family members including my Step Mother Norine, who pretty much took a broken home and made it whole again. So breast cancer awareness is something I'm an advocate of. It's truly my honor to walk in the memory of my mother and inspire others to either join with me or donate for the cure.

Click below to join my team or donate to the cause
http://www.info-komen.org/site/TR/RacefortheCure/General?px=12182360&pg=personal&fr_id=2479

I feel a sense of pride that I'm getting up and moving and commiting to these things.

Jan 2012 wrap up

Well not what I wanted to lose but a loss is a loss. In January I managed to get through the holidays, get a promotion at work, take on extra work until a replacement is hired for my current position, and on top of that... my birthday on the 23rd which is always a weekend long event.

I'd say with all of that going on and still at a 3 lb loss for the month... I'LL TAKE IT!

Now come on nice weather! I've signed up for a 5K (purpleday5K.com) for March 24th. This means I need to start training for this. This will be my first 5K ever. Yes, I am walking but as a great motivational push my cousin Jen posted to me... It doesn't matter how fast you run you are still doing laps around those on the couch. I've decided to start a scrapbook for just all my events I participate in and maybe someday when I am blessed with a child they will be proud that their momma didn't just lay down and die.

Have YOU given up yet?

There are statistics that say over 50-60% of you have already given up on your resolutions. Question is.... why?

Have you not gotten your materials or ideas organized on how to succeed?
Have you decided that it's just too hard to maintain?
Have you just plain given up?

If you answered YES to any of those items well you are human, but you are allowing excuses to get in your way. No one has 100% on days 100% of the time. The point is you have to allow yourself to forgive and move on. It's easier to continually put yourself down or make yourself feel bad for not doing something. Find the time for you... Find the energy for you.



I've made some pretty aggressive goals to lose 100 lbs this year. I wanted to try and lose close to 10 lbs a month. Knowing that some months I'll ROCK IT!!! some I'll fall a little short. I'm not going to beat myself over it to the point that I don't continue to try. A loss is a loss and as long as I keep going down even if it's a lb at a time/week it's a loss. Eventually I'll see the results I desire and I believe this year of TRANSFORMATIONS will happen as long as I want it bad enough.



Hang in there my fellow weight loss friends. If you need motivation or a pep talk just let me know!

This weeks focus: Affirmation

This week not only am I going to continue my push for hydration but I'm going to start telling myself a positive image affirmation in the mirror each day this week.

Not only do we need to change our outer self but also our inner self. I do believe there are scars that we bury deep down that also cause our bad habits or our ease to give up on our goals. Until you face the skeletons in your closet will you begin to heal and love yourself.

I believe I have many thing that I need to just clear out and open up to myself about and let them go. Forgive not only others but myself for those things. I am in hopes that affirmations will assist me in doing so this week. I've also pondered the thought of writing down those things into a notebook and then burning the pages one by one setting them free.

This weeks focus: Hydration

Each week I'm going to focus on a new thing that will help in my weight loss journey.
First things first.... HYDRATION!

It's said that you should drink .5 OZ for every lb you weigh each day. I weighed in Monday at 333.4 X .5= 166.7 oz of water... Holy moley! That's a lot of water batman!

What I'm going to do is try and drink more then I did the day before and get me up to that level. I don't want to drown myself or get myself in a place where I have to run to the bathroom every few mins (especially because I'm on long calls at work and just can't get up for an hour or 2). So today's goal is to drink 3 of my 20 oz bottles before I leave work. That's 60 oz. Then I'm going to try and drink another 40 oz before 8 PM but need to stop there or I'll be up all night. Good start I think. Then tomorrow I'll add 20 oz more then 20 oz more the next day and so on.

I'm hoping by the weekend I'll be up to where I need to be at to maintain Hydration. Then I can pick something else to focus on next week. Stay tuned.

Gifts that mean so much

In reading my Cousin in Laws blog today it made me think... Isn't it great when our significant others pick up on hints of things we NEED to help us on our journey. For her (being pregnant and due in Feb I think) she really enjoys running and really really wants to get back to it so my cousin gave her items for that including gift certificate for new running shoes.... that was priceless to her.

For me, I just want fun work outs. My husband knows I love to sing and dance around the house (not professionally hee hee). My work outs can be hard, challenging, but for the most part need to be different. So he got me Just Dance Summertime and Just Dance 3. I have 1 & 2 and looooove them! So I'm excited to have these two new additions. The other one he wanted to get me was Zumba 2 for the Wii but TRU was out so I'm going to see about ordering that one. The greatest gift my hubby can get me is the gift of bettering my life. I appreciate him for doing this for me. I appreciate him for eating my concoction's in trying to better feed us.... and most of all I appreciate that no matter what his love is unconditional. He just wants me around longer... who can blame him :)