Diabetes eating plan

Before you freak out... No, I don't have Diabetes. I did however test high normal on my last test and my OBGYN suggested in my TTC efforts that I try this diet. I hate using the word diet so I'm doing an eating plan. It's actually very similar too a plan that I've done before so I'm excited to be starting this Monday. I'm going to go shopping for it all tomorrow morning and spend tomorrow prepping my meals for the first 3 days of the week. The first 7 days the plan gives you 1600 calories a day 400 calories each meal for a total of 4 meals. You eat every 4 hours. It recommends walking 30 mins a day. Monday I'm actually going to try a Jazzersice class with a couple of girlfriends to see if I like it. I do try to walk on breaks during work when I can. So just need to make sure I get the full 30 mins at least done a day.

After the 7 days then there is a 28 day plan that gives you more flexibility in the foods you can choose for your meals. As I read this book "Flat Belly Diet for Diabetes" it says that should be enough time to break habits. Most people have lost 12 lbs in 3 weeks. With the weight I'm at I'm sure I'll lose more then that.

I have to get on a plane to a client in about 2 weeks and would love to have lost 10--15 lbs before then. I'm also planning a trip to Cali (DISNEYLAND) the end of October and would like to be down 20-30 lbs by then. Then maybe be down 50 total by Christmas... I know pretty aggressive but I've lost 50 lbs in 3 months before just by eating better and moving.

I have so many clothes in 2 closets I can't fit into... by the end of the year I will not only fit into all of them but be able to donate what is too big. :)

I'm just Livin... L-I-V-I-N

So this week many hustle and bustles happened. It sucks when both your cars need to be registered the same month each year. Never the less repairs done. One car registered the other should be by tomorrow.

This week I decided to not be a debbie downer. I decided to enjoy each minute that I had. I did my walking on breaks and that felt good. Been cooking at home a little more and this week we are going for 100% no fast food. I even went to scrapbook club last night and wasn't a huge downer because I was "Tired" or something else. I sat there in the heated room with a fan blowing my project 2 and fro laughing, enjoying the company of the ladies, and really loving my creation.

When I got home last night I mentioned to Duane that I haven't really been scrapbooking in my room all that much since I moved everything down stairs... funny he said he had noticed. I've been so caught up in other things I hadn't noticed I haven't done that or painted or played my sax in a while. Maybe it's really time I started Livin again! Do the things I enjoy and if happiness follows, well I am ready for ya!

Baby steps for sure... not buying any more clothes until I drop some sizes.

Walking. . . . . . . . . . .

So I've been making it a goal to get off my butt at work and take at least 1 15 min walk around the parking lot a day. As a manager time to get that in is almost unheard of, but I've been forcing myself. I put 2 a day in my schedule and try to at least make one of them.

This is making me feel better BUT and there is always a but, I don't feel like it's enough. In fact I know it's not enough. By the time I get home, get dinner made, get the dogs played with, get what ever house work I need to get done. . . I'm exhausted. I don't even have a child yet and I'm so worn out... mentally from the work day and then physically from all the stuff I feel I need to do.

I know we all feel this way. We start off really gungho about the whole weight loss thing and we give in to excuses. I have 0 yes 0 weight loss to report. I believe this is #1 due to having so much to do I make what ever is quick and easy. Trying to put veggies in the the mix most of the time though. #2 Stress!!! with work, with trying to have a baby. I find myself a lot lately wishing I were a kid again so that I could only have to worry about keeping my room clean and homework. Funny, as adults we forget how to "Play"... not video games, but play outside. Duane and I have been talking a lot lately about me just worrying about getting my body right and my hormones back on track... not worrying about calculating every step of my cycle to maybe have a child. Even though I said I took 6 months off... I took it off from everything so I didn't do anything to get myself right.

So with that said I will probably be telling my family and friends that the whole baby situation is on hold. I'm getting more and more depressed by the day. This isn't all of who I am. It's like my whole world was put on hold for 2 years... 2 YEARS!!! That is a lot of time I could have been focusing on other things and enjoying my life. If I died tomorrow I could only say that I was a hard worker. . . and that is sad.

So time to actually start Walking the walk... not just going through the motions.

Down a couple more!!!

So I'm down to 331.8

This week has been majorly stressful! My poor 4 month old puppy came down with Parvo and she was in the vet hospital all week. Between that and it being a short week at work but a weeks worth of stuff to do... I haven't made the best choices. I've not walked on breaks this week, I've drank more non water then water, and I've eaten poorly.

Now that I know I've done this I'm not going to beat myself up over it. I'm going to realize what I've done and then I'm going to move on. I could have done much better but not going to shame myself for losing over 10 lbs in 3 weeks.

Puppy is doing well. A lot of meds have to be administered through out the day still and special food. Eventually we can let our dogs play together again... and she is dying to play with Hudson! It's been hard to keep them apart.

I have been switching to anything sugar free. There are times I want some chocolate or a Popsicle. It's nice to know I have some great tasty choices there.

It's dim... but it's light

So at the docs on 6/20 I weighed in at 344.5, after that hard hour of talking and accepting what I needed to do... what a difference a week can make. On 6/27 I weighed in at 337.8 that is yes a 6.7 lb loss..

High Five!
Do a little dance

This week I'm working on walking at least once a day, moving more, making good choices! and drinking lots o water...

I'll check in next week and maybe post a tracker.

Ok, Ok, I get it!

So many of you that follow my blog know of my struggles to start a family. Well I switched doctors this week and was very impressed by how much he wanted to know about my history and also spend time making sure I was informed as to EXACTLY what I needed to do.

So, OK I get it. I'm over weight. In order for him to consider giving me chlomid he's recommending that I lose 30-40 lbs with in the next few months. He's giving me some meds to regulate my hormones and also to support reproductive health. So far they are making me sick but I'll just have to deal.

Reality is... If I want it then I need to do what it takes so I can achieve it.

No more excuses, no more poor me's, no more sitting here thinking I should do something maybe tomorrow... no get off my butt and just do it! I've started walking on breaks at work. I'm back to calculating every single thing that goes into my body (Finding out I'm not eating enough, and not enough of the good stuff). I'll crack this code and just by doing these things the weight should fall off. I have to stay positive and believe that if I put in the efforts I'll get a big reward. The reward I've been waiting over a decade for.

Next time I reach for a soda or a piece of cake I'm going to ask my self "Do I want X more then I want a baby?"
I know the answer will always be NO I don't want X more. I don't need it.

So I've been maintaining at 332 for a month now. I guess I should be happy that I'm maintaining but that's my MO. I maintain.... if only I could get down to 160lbs and maintain ;)I've been cutting back on the drive thru and making killer turkey burgers and meals at home. The only thing I keep craving is little ceasers crazy bread... boo you are bad for my thighs!

So after 6 months of not being on any meds and not focusing on testing, charting, and calculating every little thing... I think I am mentally ready to start focusing with the doctors again on raising my progesterone levels. That's what they keep telling me will help us finally have a child. Right now all I'm asking god for is one child. So instead of leaving it up to chance anymore to get pregnant again.. I'm going to go back and do what the doctor tells me. So cross your fingers for me friends.

I probably won't type more then the above paragraph on this doc meds subject because #1 don't want too bore you and #2 if and when I do become with child again I will still have a chance of miscarriage again and I don't want to get everyone all excited. We've decided a specific time when I do get pregnant that we will release that information to the world. Just hoping it's before the holidays this year because that would be a killer present.

Lightening my mood

So I decided enough was enough. If I am going to accomplish my goals I needed to "Lighten" my mood. First I dyed my hair back to my blond color. I was happiest back in my teens as a blond and figure what the hell... it's bright cheery and can help me be positive right? Well so far I love it



Next, I read an article on MSN last week that Yellow nail polish can lift your spirits and is also a great color for Summer. So guess what I did last weekend? Went on a search for the most perfect shade of yellow. I found it at Target for like 2.50 it's called mellow yellow.
I put it on my toes and my fingers. At first I hated it, It's not my thing not to put red or pink on my toes. Today I've decided I really like it, it's growing on me. Maybe I'll venture out into some more bright colors this summer.

So try new things my friends... get out of the dark and into the spark!

Yeah, Yeah I know... I'm a lamer

I haven't posted anything in almost a month. I know I'm lame! I've been soo busy and preoccupied and depressed that I didn't want to yet again go on another rant.

I seriously think there is something wrong. I don't eat OR DRINK sugar for 40 days and only lose 6 lbs. At my weight I should have lost WAY more then that. I think since my miscarriage last year my body just can't adjust.. I'm staying stagnant.

So in an effort to correct my chem imbalance I'm going BACK to the docs but to a new one who specializes in this stuff. Crossing my fingers that #1 my insurance will cover most of it and #2 I'll get back to a good place.

I'm tired of being depressed and sad all the time. I'm tired of being jealous of everyone around me. Somethings got to give!

Haven't checked in a while

Hello all,

Well I did really good till Easter. I feel like since Easter I have had candy and soda and all the stuff I suffered 40 days with out.

Hello, My name is Samantha, and I'm a Sugaholic!!

It's so hard when every family gathering involves food and desserts. Easter, Mothers day, Baby showers, all wrapped up into 3 out of 4 weekends in a row. I know I am in control of what I put in and what efforts I put out. I'm really reconsidering joining a gym again. I miss water aerobics a lot.