303, 302, 300.5
I can't seem to break the 300 mark. I know I know... I am so close and not to get discouraged now. I count every calorie. Work out. water water water.... I just can't seem to break it. I should be shedding weight like mad.
Some day... some day I will look back at this and laugh at my thoughts. I will not stop I will keep pushing thru.
2014 Goal (100 lb loss)
2014 Goal
Showing posts with label Smack in the face reality. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Smack in the face reality. Show all posts
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Friday, October 19, 2012
Accepting and dealing with the cards you are dealt
Lately I have been thinking long and hard about all aspects of my life. I'm doing well with weight loss, I'm in a good marriage, I'm starting to get hope back that possibly someday I'll hold MY child, and Hudson is happy now.
It's true though that you always want more then what you are blessed with. You want a thinner body faster, You want a healthy baby of your own, You want excitment to happen in your life every day, you want a bigger better home, You want your debt to disappear, you want clothes that work with your body, you want you want you want.
How do we overcome the "wants" and be happy with the "what I haves"?
Someday I think that I need to address this addiction to "always wanting more" with a professional. People will tell me, "Just be thankful" or "Just put it out of your mind" or "Your time will come". It honestly feels like I do everything to be good and moral but yet see others rewarded that are bad and S#itheads. It isn't that easy when you have an addictive personality to just not be happy with what you don't have. I've seen addicition all my life as well through those close to me. I know when I need help and I know when to ask for it.
Maybe it's just human nature. Maybe no one is meant to feel "Whole" and that's the challenge god has put before me. I know I don't usually get this deep in thought but today I'm really reflective.
It's true though that you always want more then what you are blessed with. You want a thinner body faster, You want a healthy baby of your own, You want excitment to happen in your life every day, you want a bigger better home, You want your debt to disappear, you want clothes that work with your body, you want you want you want.
How do we overcome the "wants" and be happy with the "what I haves"?
Someday I think that I need to address this addiction to "always wanting more" with a professional. People will tell me, "Just be thankful" or "Just put it out of your mind" or "Your time will come". It honestly feels like I do everything to be good and moral but yet see others rewarded that are bad and S#itheads. It isn't that easy when you have an addictive personality to just not be happy with what you don't have. I've seen addicition all my life as well through those close to me. I know when I need help and I know when to ask for it.
Maybe it's just human nature. Maybe no one is meant to feel "Whole" and that's the challenge god has put before me. I know I don't usually get this deep in thought but today I'm really reflective.
Friday, September 21, 2012
Marathon Week (not in a good way)
Let me run it down for you:
Monday: Mother in Laws Birthday at Cracker Barrel (Low carb menu :) )
Tuesday: Double Jazzercise classes (Didn't get in enough calories)
Wednesday: Rock Festival (Crap food but stayed within cals)
Thursday: Habitat for Humanity project (Crap food but stayed within cals)
Friday: Rehersal Dinner (For a wedding Duanes in)
Saturday: Lunch with aunts at Cheesecake factory and then the Wedding
Sunday: Nephews Birthday Party
How much more stuff can Sammie pack into her week? Ummmm I don't know and honestly I don't want to find out. So even though I'm keeping with in my calories I've not made the most sodium friendly choices this week. If tomorrow mornings weigh in is that I am the same weight and not more.... I'll be happy!
Monday: Mother in Laws Birthday at Cracker Barrel (Low carb menu :) )
Tuesday: Double Jazzercise classes (Didn't get in enough calories)
Wednesday: Rock Festival (Crap food but stayed within cals)
Thursday: Habitat for Humanity project (Crap food but stayed within cals)
Friday: Rehersal Dinner (For a wedding Duanes in)
Saturday: Lunch with aunts at Cheesecake factory and then the Wedding
Sunday: Nephews Birthday Party
How much more stuff can Sammie pack into her week? Ummmm I don't know and honestly I don't want to find out. So even though I'm keeping with in my calories I've not made the most sodium friendly choices this week. If tomorrow mornings weigh in is that I am the same weight and not more.... I'll be happy!
Friday, July 13, 2012
The Trifecta
Well, I've been debating blogging about this. I do feel however getting it out there in writing makes me more accountable for my actions.
As everyone knows I've been trying to have a baby for 3 years now. It's been a long difficult road.. Well I've been working with a new OB and he's run some follow up tests from last year as a follow up. My family has a history of high BP... well I guess it's finally catching up with me because mine has been on the rise for the last 2 years. So I am now on pregnancy safe (In case I do get pregnant ever) BP meds.
The next issue is I am at the prediabetic level. I had a feeling even cutting out soda and reducing candy wouldn't help since last year... I was really hoping it would. So I'm logging my calories on myfitnesspal app and .com. I'm able to add in columns such as sodium and sugars. Problem now is understanding how much sugars I can have in a day because pretty much per this tracker if I have 2 apples I'm over.
The last serious issue is elevated Cholesterol. Since all meds for this is not pregnancy friendly I have to control this via diet.
Good news is I've been doing Jazzercise 3-4 times a week since March and am feeling so much stronger. I have been logging my meals and such for a week and making myself accountable and have lost 6.5 lbs since last week. That means I'm in the 320's again. Per myfitnesspal if I keep up the path I'm on I should be possibly out of the 300's in mid to late fall... can't wait for that day!
As everyone knows I've been trying to have a baby for 3 years now. It's been a long difficult road.. Well I've been working with a new OB and he's run some follow up tests from last year as a follow up. My family has a history of high BP... well I guess it's finally catching up with me because mine has been on the rise for the last 2 years. So I am now on pregnancy safe (In case I do get pregnant ever) BP meds.
The next issue is I am at the prediabetic level. I had a feeling even cutting out soda and reducing candy wouldn't help since last year... I was really hoping it would. So I'm logging my calories on myfitnesspal app and .com. I'm able to add in columns such as sodium and sugars. Problem now is understanding how much sugars I can have in a day because pretty much per this tracker if I have 2 apples I'm over.
The last serious issue is elevated Cholesterol. Since all meds for this is not pregnancy friendly I have to control this via diet.
Good news is I've been doing Jazzercise 3-4 times a week since March and am feeling so much stronger. I have been logging my meals and such for a week and making myself accountable and have lost 6.5 lbs since last week. That means I'm in the 320's again. Per myfitnesspal if I keep up the path I'm on I should be possibly out of the 300's in mid to late fall... can't wait for that day!
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